Something amazing has happened. Something out of the blue, not planned, and not expected. Something that makes me nervous, excited, anxious, happy, sad and a mixture of 100 other emotions…
On Saturday, January 23rd around 10:30am, I received a phone call that altered my thought process and state of mind forever. There is a baby due in May. Not just any baby, Harper’s birth sibling. (I am not going to mention any further details regarding the baby’s story as to respect that their birth story is just that, theirs to share if they wish. It is not my story to tell.) Needless to say, hearing that this child would soon exist and that it needed a home set my mind and my emotions on overdrive. After much thinking and talking, we decided there was no way that we could say no to parenting this child. Do we have the money to adopt again, no we do not. Are some things in life bigger than money, yes they are.
Since this day, life has gone on as usual, but not one hour goes by that I do not think about this baby and wonder so many things….is he/she healthy, is the birthmother doing ok, is this child a girl or boy, what is the expected due date, how are we going to come up with the money for this adoption, will I hear from my social worker today, how do people wait for babies to arrive as that was not how this happened the first time, and on and on. The questions and thoughts are endless. The worry that one has for their children has already started and I have yet to meet this little one.
Harper…he is excited to be a big brother. As you all know, this child is my love and my life. He is the most amazing being in the world to me. (besides Jason of course 🙂 How could I love another child the way that I love him. OR How could I not love another child the way I love him. I am sure every mother feels this way when adding a new child to the family, but I know this will all work itself out and is happening for a reason. Harper is so smart and has such a huge heart that he is going to be a great big brother. I am sure they will have their differences, but ultimately, I feel blessed that Harper and our new baby will have one another to rely on and to count on when no one else can understand what it means to be in their situations besides themselves. They will have one another and that bond can never be broken.
I will keep you all posted as I learn more and we welcome our son or daughter sometime in May. Thank you for listening and loving our family! We have set up a Gofundme account for our adoption. Please pass along our fundraiser if you feel so compelled. 🙂 Adoption Go Fund Me